I wouldn’t say I “always”think about it but there are fleeting moments this thought comes to my mind. “What if we didn’t have Sayali, my daughter”
I struggled with fertility issues. In a span of three years I had two miscarriages and had an ectopic pregnancy because of which my one fallopian tube was removed. Unfortunately, the tube that was removed was good one and the one that remained was termed as inverted, with which I had no chance of natural pregnancy. I was told IVF was only option. It was a quite a blow and we were almost prepared that it may not happen. However by grace of god within two months of this episode, I conceived naturally. That stumped my doctor too. Indeed it was a miracle.
Having Sayali in my life is my biggest blessing and obviously sometime when I look at her, a fleeting thought does come to my mind “what if she wasn’t born”. She is a reason that I fought hard with my illness, I wanted to live for her.
Being people who we are, my husband and I would have coped up with not having her, either by adopting a child or just accepting the situation and adjusting to the life.
Thankfully we have Sayali in our life. I often tell one of my friend who has a major sweet tooth, Sayali has brought so much sweetness in our life that we do not need to eat any desserts.